I kinda have mixed feelings to the the New Year.
At times I feel like being sad (since I just had a recent breakup), but we remain friends, and I’m thankful of that. When I tell friends about it, I don’t really like to go into the details of why. I simple opt to tell them that he’s young and can’t give 100% to a relationship right now. He still has alot to go through. Basically, we aren’t at the same point in our life. I get different reactions, most of which is not a surprise. Not that many “Awww, I’m so sorry – will you be okay” though… They probably know that things will be okay, and at least I made a very good friend thought this. (Funny how many of my ex’s have become good friends)
I’m surprised that I haven’t been really depressed though. Maybe if I was back in college and younger and not sure of myself. I see myself now as being lucky. I start this year going back to a job that I love, I can pay for rent and bills (although I don’t have that much left for luxuries), I’m getting freelance jobs up the ying-yang, and I’m doing thing around the house to make my apartment more like a home. So I count my blessings and am thankful for what I have.
I feel excited. There’s alot of things I want to accomplish in the next few months. I’ll write more about them later.
But for now, I’m feel sleepy… and after spending New Years Eve alone at home talking on the phone and watching sit-coms the ball drop in Time Square, I must get to bed.