Have you ever had to cut things off with a friend? I think that’s what I have to do tonight.

I don’t want to go into any great details, but I’m just to the point where I just keep getting hurt and getting hurt and getting hurt and I can’t take it any more :(

I really don’t want to lose a friend, especially this one… I know he’s going through alot, but it just seems like our friendship is one sided. I’ve always been there for him… I think I’ve gone above and beyond what anyone can do, but for the past year it just seems like I don’t know this person and when he calls it’s always to ask for something… but when I call him, he doesn’t pick up, doesn’t return my calls or has no time for me.

I’ve asked if we can talk tonight. I wanted to Saturday night after an “incident,” but he pushed it aside… He didn’t want to discuss this now. I’ve asked how much money he owes me and if he can pay it back. I’m going to start dropping his stuff that he has at my house (it’s alot) at the place he’s living at now. I asked him to fill out a change of address, so I will no longer receive his mail and give it to him… And basically, I want to no longer have anything to do with him.

DAMN!!! I hate it… I hate this situation, even typing the above paragraph, I feel like I’m a bitch!!! But I dunno? I can’t keep getting hurt and getting stepped on. I just can’t.

There’s actually more to it than this, but I’m having a difficult time thinking now, so I’ll leave it at that.

I do wish him all the best… and hope he gets his life in order.

It’s difficult to cut things off with someone you love :(

Tonight (Monday night), I got a used 800mhz Dual Processor G4 from my coworker… It’s about 5:20am now and I’ve been formatting the drive and installing OS X and most of the programs I’m gonna use… I got the main programs I want and tomorrow I’ll be moving the second video card, extra hard drives, eyetv and other things from my old G3 to my new computer… hmmm, I think I won’t be getting too much sleep this week.

After getting a new crown, I’ve been noticing my teeth more and I think my teeth are too yellow… eww!!!… (Damn smoking and Diet Coke!) I ask my dentist about the teeth whiteners and toothpaste they had on the market and he said that the whitening toothpastes have such a little concentration of the active ingredient, that they don’t work well. He suggest to try the . So I got a pack on Friday. I though it was kinda pricey at $24, but the box I got had 50% more free, so I though I would give it a try.

If you haven’t seen or heard of them. The Crest Whitestrips are basically these plastic strips with little dots of peroxide that you place on your teeth. You apply them for 30 minutes, twice daily for 2 weeks.

At first, it was kinda gross. I kept on salivating, so I would taste and smell the peroxide. After 3 days, it going okay… I think I’m use to it now and no longer salivate excessively. I think my teeth are getting whiter, but I don’t know if it’s all in my head… I should have taken pictures of my teeth before I started… Well, I’ll see in a couple weeks.

Every since I got OS X on my Mac at work last week, I’ve been logging into AIM and Yahoo Messenger more often… so if ya wanna chat…

My AIM screenname is alameda17.

My Yahoo Messenger screenname is alamedapinoy.

One of our clients, Kikkoman (the soy sauce company), sponsored a fun activity for us today. Sushi and Sumo Wrestling… The sushi was pretty good… and the sumo wrestling was hilarious to watch.

As I was walking by the food to get a Diet Coke, the Kikkoman guy, pulled me aside and said, “Com’on, you want to wrestle don’t you.” Someone from upstairs wanted to wrestle and didn’t have a partner. I didn’t want to but all my coworkers were cheering me on… so what the hell… I went for it…

OMG, it was so hot in the Sumo suit… and it was so hard to move around… hehehe… by the end of two rounds, I was so tired out… I didn’t win, but it was fun… I dunno if anyone took my picture…